At the end of a pity party that had gone on for a few days, I realized that I could take it, but I was having trouble dishing it out. Once I realized that -- everything changed.
Yes, not the other way around: I had been taking it pretty well without dishing it out for the duration of my pity party. What is it? It is understanding, patience, compassion, kindness. Did I already say understanding? While I indulged my tendency to focus on how the world is treating me and the unfairness of it all, I was also depending on the understanding, patience, compassion and kindness of those around me.
Once I realized that I had been ungrateful for the love that had been shown to me, especially by my husband, it caused an immediate attitude adjustment. I realized that I had been relying on the goodness of my family and friends without showing them the same. I could take it, but could I dish it out?
With God's help I got my head on straight and got grateful for every kindness done to me. I started to notice more and more how good I have it at home and at work. Things are not perfect, but I can't deny it any more -- God is good all the time.
