While talking to God about our group, I was inspired that we would be able to experience deeper recovery and more spiritual growth by working the steps. It's been a challenge with Jan away temporarily; however, Jesus shows up at every meeting. I expect miracles to happen every Friday and I haven't once been disappointed.
As you may know, we alternate between a teaching and a testimony every Friday night. Last week we had a teaching, so this week we are due for a testimony. I'm writing about this because this Friday night, I will be sharing my experience, strength, and hope in my testimony and after 14 years of sobriety, I'm nervous.
I'm praying that God will tell me what to say that will be meaningful and reflect His saving grace and amazing love. Because the Holy Spirit is making my heart ready, I'm willing to disclose whatever He wants. I'm an open book. Let's be clear: there are some tales I'd prefer not to tell, but with God's help I'll tell those if He wants.
We have a saying in CR: God never wastes a hurt. If my pain and the pain I've caused others through my carelessness and selfishness can help someone see that there is hope, there is a solution, God is real and He loves people like us; well, then it's worth the telling.
Thank you for letting me share.
